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Friday, January 02, 2009


I just cannot, cannot, cannot keep this to myself ....


I am sooooooooooooooooooooo excited .... I can't wait for Fred's call.

Thursday, January 01, 2009

Looking Forward

By the Chinese calendar, this year is the Year of the Pig. And I hope and pray it's much better than the last. While last year wasn't all bad, it certainly wasn't the greatest.

I am hoping to really grow my business a little more this year. I really hope Lauren comes back ... I already miss the little booger. When Jessica's mother found out she was preggers, we discussed my taking both her kids when she went back to work. I am really hoping that works out well too. I will be happy with the number of kids I would have at that point. No more than that. Crossing my fingers here!

My perfect year would consist of location changes for two of my best friends: 1) Sarah getting a job in Freddy or one of the outlying areas. No more God foresaken GM. And 2) Anita and the brood would return to the Maritimes. I am also going to try and make it a point to get together and make more time to scrapbook with my friends as well.

I am going to try to spend more time with my Grammy. This winter, while she is staying at my aunt Mary's, I am going to arrange 'dinner dates' with Grammy. Mary can go out and take the evening off while I make dinner for Grammy and Mum. It will be nice. Ask Amanda over some too. I am going to try to be more patient with my relatives. But at the same time, I won't take anymore crap from them. I think my relationship with my sister will probably stay on the same course for now. It's working for the time being.

My biggest challenge here is my weight. I am hoping with some hard work and some help from my new doctor and my family, I may be able to drop a few pounds. I will continue to work with my doctor regarding treatment for my PCOS ... and hopefully that will aid in the quest for a slimmer me.

I am praying for a good year of healthy pets. What else can I say? If I get that out of the year, I will be a happy camper.

I want to travel more this year. There was some talk about a group trip to Ireland ... my dream destination. I would LOVE, LOVE, LOVE to take K and Em to Disney. And I would really like to do a girls trip somewhere warm. If only!

So ... my big goal here is to work more on my scrapbooking and my quilting. I guess my goal for scrapbooking would be to do 1 LO a week. At my current zip-zilch-nada, 1 LO would definitely be an improvement. I want to work more on quilting projects too .... my current project is a baby quilt. I want to get it done by mid next week. From then on, I am going to try to accomplish 1 quilting project a month. That way, by the time Christmas rolls around, I may have a few items I could sell.

Here's to a great 2009!!! May you Bless me! (I know that's selfish, but DAMN! I need a good year before I lose all hope.)

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Looking Back

The past year has been both the same-old-same-old and full of changes.

It's hard to believe that at this time last year I had Lauren and Jessica. Now I will start the year with neither. Alivia started with us in March and will still be here. At least that won't change. The year meant a lot of changes with Lauren or Miss @-T-tude as I liked to call her. And attitude she had/has aplenty. For the most part, it meant she cracked me up. But there were times when her little 3 year old self pushed the enveloppe. Jessica was done earlier than anticipated, as her mother started maternity early. It was sad to see her go, specially since her her departure that last day was so rushed, as her father had to drive his boss home. One minute she was there and the next she was gone, not to return this year. Alivia has been a hoot. She is so good natured ... she charms everyone she meets. She has also been my healthiest kid since I started. I could count on one hand the number of times she was sick this past year. Truly amazing!

What a difference a year can make there! My best friends are still my best friends. Some of those have been tested by distance ... which I must now insert - when the hell are you coming home? But there have been changes in my circle ... some who have become distant either by my choice or theirs. And for the most part, that has been a good step. Friendships, personal insecurities, and trust were all tested. And for many, it was a disaster. I have a few regrets concerning some of my former close friends, but overall I think circumstances are as good as they are going to get given the past.

Ahhh ... family. I haven't killed my mother, so that's a positive. I still think that she needs a hobby or a part-time job to keep her out of my hair more ... I have tried to encourage her there in the last year, but to no avail. My sister and I aren't as close as some sisters are .... but at least it's not WW III. We've had our ups and downs the past year. But I think that pulling back and keeping an emotional distance with her has helped. The rest of the fam ... well, either I love 'em or can't stand 'em. That can't stand 'em list has been growing in the past 12 months and I am sure it will only get longer. My Grammy has become weaker as the year has passed. She talks of it all being over and this saddens me as nothing else can. My Grammy was my second mother ... she is my last living grandparent. When she passes on, it will leave a huge void in my heart and soul.

What can I say? I put all the pounds back on. And a few more for bad luck. I have a return of all those lovely problems, like heart palpitations, increased OA in my knee, no stamina, poor sleep. You would think that would have been a huge motivation to get my fat ass moving. Not so. My mental health finally improved when I ditched the Wellbutrin and got back on the Zoloft ... thank goodness. I thought I was actually losing my mind. I mean ... I was on an anti-depressant ... I shouldn't have been feeling even more depressed than if I wasn't on anything, right? The PCOS has actually improved ... I started Yasmin (bc pills) and it has been great! Lots of those horrible PCOS side effects have lessened. The only down side was actually having a period ... My doctors both left their practice - Dr. Broad to head up a DECH unit and Dr. Tingley to "retire". I was worried I would be left without a doctor, but the medical gods smiled upon me and a new one was found ... and she's a she. AND SHE'S FREAKING AWESOME! I've been in once already .. and she ordered a huge list of blood tests and talked about trying some treatments for my PCOS. It's truly shocking to have a doctor who actually practices medicine rather than brushing you off.

This year saw a newcomer ... Miss Sweetie Pot Pie, as I like to call her. She's melded well with all the animals. She and Keaton have a great time playing. She also tried to cozy up to Sunny, but Sunny wouldn't have any of that. LOL. August was a black month for us. I finally had to put my foot down and say enough was enough. Lukey was suffering and it had to stop, no matter how badly we would miss him. Amanda was surprisingly cooperative with all my decisions ... technically he was her dog, even though he lived as my dog the last 5 years. The day we took him in to the vet, he was so excited and happy to go for a drive in the car. I will never forget that. By the time we got him in the exam room, he was totally exhausted. It was an aweful day, a horrendous hour. My Boo was gone. To a much better place. Cuz ya know, all dogs go to Heaven. We talked about getting another dog for five months. But it just never felt right. Not until this past month. And I adopted my Gus man. It was totally the right time. I think Lukey had a paw in that decision. But that's for another post.

Well ... that's tomorrow's post ....

Monday, December 29, 2008

Unwanted Calls

Ok, so as soon as the 'No Call' list was available, I signed us up.

But I still get calls. Arrggh!

I hate how they immediately launch into their little 'pitch' so you have no time to stop them. It's like they're machines - they don't seem to pause to take a breath. Even if I can manage to get a word in edgewise, it takes several 'no's before they get the picture. And I just can't bring myself to hang up on them the minute they start.

So now, I get all passive-aggressive on them. My solution is to let them tell their speil to the table. I simply put the phone down on the table and walk away. After a minute or two, I come back and hang up. By that time, they have gotten the picture, hung up on me, and gone on to besiege another poor unwitting citizen.