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Saturday, January 12, 2008

A Great Day

This has been a great day! And it's only half over!

I had the chance to sleep in ... it was such a treat! I have been having trouble sleeping lately, so this was great. I obviously needed it because apparently Lukey was up twice in the night to go outside to pee ... both times he barked in Mum's face ... I didn't hear a thing! Of course, I did hear the smoke alarm go off at 9am when Mum burnt a piece of toast. I just rolled over and went back to sleep for a while. Then I got up and had breakfast - strawberries and milk and cubed watermelon. Yuuuuummmmmy. Spent the morning reading. Wonderful.

I did actually manage to do something "productive", when I cleaned my bathroom. Then I went grocery shopping ... had to get to the Superstore and snap up those berries! Amazing prices - 2 lbs strawberries $1.99 (usually at least $3.99), 6-8oz blackberries and blueberries $1.99 (usually $3.99). I couldn't NOT get it ... the strawberries are a little unripened, but I can overlook that just so I can have strawberries and milk in the middle of winter. Got lots of fresh veggies that were on sale, like broccoli and green beans.

I came home and made Buttermilk Biscuits ... let me just say, I am always on the lookout for the ultimate biscuit recipe. The best I have ever had are Celine's ... OMG! they are to die for! I am not exaggerating - am I Lesley? Shelley? Anyway ... these biscuits I made today are probably the best I have ever made. I had to add almost twice as much buttermilk than called for as the dough was very dry, but it just made the biscuit that much more tender. I would definitely double the salt ... and I would try it with butter instead of shortening next time, just to see what it tastes like. And you wanna know what's so great about these biscuits? They're low-fat! Can you believe it? A great-tasting, low-fat, homemade biscuit!? I was floored! Ok, enough of my ode to biscuit.

Next comes the rest of the day! Dinner at Mexi's with some amazing friends and then on to Juno. I have been dying to see this movie and I was worried they would never bring it Freddy ... but they finally have! Yay!!!

I hope everyone else is having just as great a day as I am!

Thursday, January 10, 2008

And I'm Back!

It was touch and go there for a while. I was in a pretty bad spot.

It's been coming on since Christmas Eve, but I have managed to fight it back most of the time. But last Wednesday really got to me.

I don't know if I can explain it in a way that you can understand ... I know Nick does ... she says it's the witchy thing. Anyway, while Lauren was having lunch, I had this unbelievable wave come over me like I shouldn't be standing there. I should someplace else entirely. I don't know the exact place, but it's somewhere near Inverness and Ben Nevis. I've had this feeling before. Usually it's for Kerry. Which makes the whole Scotland thing odd this time. Anyway, each time I have this feeling, it is stronger, more urgent.

So I have this whole soul-wrenching thing going on. Then a few days later, PMS arrives to make me feel even worse. I have been very diligent about taking my meds ... unfortunately, they seem to make matters worse now. This medication has the unfortunate side-effect of causing severe anxiety. Great! So on top of all the other stuff ... I am now going through a lot anxiety. So all this snow-balls, making me feel more depressed. Tuesday night was the last straw. I spent four hours crying. That was it for me. I am not taking those meds again. Mum is worried it's interacting with the BC pill I am on, too. Two days later, I am finally starting to feel better now. Thank goodness. I have talked to my useless Dr before about the side-effects and the fact it just doesn't seem to be working well and she wanted me to be more consistent with the dosing (kept forgetting the supper time dose). I have been and it's hasn't been for the better.

So I called to make an appointment with Bendy yesterday ... I can't see her until the 21st! I told Cheryl I didn't think I could make it til them. In kind of a snotty tone, told me that Bendy was out for two weeks and Broad (who is legally my doctor) was too busy to see me as everyone was stressed by the holidays and they all wanted to see the doctor now. Ummmm...ok....I'm not talking about stress. I am talking about my mental health and a possible drug interaction, damn it! So I asked if she thought it would be better for me to go to the ER. Yeah, right! She says - Well, I can't tell you not to go, but you're going to sit there an aweful long time. Ok, I sit at the ER for 12 hours or I wait two weeks to see Bendy. Ummmm .... I think the ER thing would be shorter, don't you? Anyway, I have decided that I am going to try and wait ... I am feeling better, so I think I will try to wait. If I can't, then I will go to the after-hours clinic and see if they can write a script. I know they are limited as to what kinds of scripts they can write out ... I am just hoping anti-depressants don't fall into that "regulated" group.